Are you one of them?

I am being followed, chased, stalked and hunted by people who want to do me in. I can hear them laughing... but today they are invisible. This is my diary in the event they finally get me.

This too has been going on for a few weeks, though it is not any worse today that it has been – its just becoming expensive. I am always thirsty. I just can’t get enough. Nothing I drink, or any amount of it seems to satisfy my thirst. The only thing that does help take my mind off the drought is consuming too much soda – the carbonation makes me feel so full that I am almost sick to think about eating or drinking anything more.

My desk is littered with glasses and bottles. I have cans in the bare spots on my windowsill next to my radio. The bottles, some of them beer, occasionally jitter about and nudge each other as if they are making jokes about me and trying to hold in their laughter. The cocktail party never ceases, though the soda cans that I have made wallflowers of just sit silently, ever watching me just above my head and seeing the words as I type them even now.

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I have been dismissing this all for quite some time, my fear that there are those who would do me harm. Not so much dismissing, as explaining it away and trying to rationalize these experiences. But today is just a breaking point I suppose, this whole paranoia thing is leaping from the people I don’t even know to the inanimate objects around me.

I’m not even sure I can use the term inanimate in all cases. My ceiling fan is definitely animated. It spins and creates drafts just to get my attention. Is that what all this is? Just a ploy to garner a little attention? That makes me sound even more vane or selfish doesn’t it? That I would think objects around me would be demanding my attention?

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